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Losing my baby to school.

So I’m just sitting, feeling a bit meh, (technical term), because my baby girl has her last day at preschool tomorrow and then, after what is feeling like an increasingly short summer holiday, she is off to school.

So excited and looking super cute but just looking at this makes me well up!

So excited and looking super cute but just looking at this makes me well up, that’s my baby there!!

Oh don’t get me wrong, it’s a lovely school, really lovely, and she is fairly excited and it’s very close by, but I just feel a huge sense of loss when I think about it. I really feel that when I watch her little uniformed figure disappear through those gates that a part of her will be lost to me forever. I am no longer in charge of what we do every day. I can’t decide to whisk them off on a midweek adventure day, just dropping an email or text to preschool explaining that she won’t be in. (Find out what happened two years later when we decided to home school!)

Of course we will still have weekends and holidays but everywhere will be busier, noisier, with long queues for things. I feel this tremendous weight of all the things I wish I’d done with her while we still had the chance to go when it was quieter. It feels like an out of control juggernaut, time, steaming forward with me desperately trying to load it up with as many experiences as possible before it’s too late, hanging off the side with one arm, trying to encourage my reluctant children running alongside to keep up.

So I’ve decided to stop. I’m out of time now anyway. I don’t want a summer of stress and frantic attempts to enjoy ourselves while in reality, everyone will just end up miserable, hot and bothered. This summer is going to be….The Summer of Nothing,

There, it has a proper title now and so we will have to abide by it. This summer we will relax, have fun where we find it, take hours to go to the shop for an ice cream instead of chivvying them along everywhere, have water fights in the garden, pick blackberries, (they are ripe already, this isn’t right surely?!), see family, see friends and just take each day as it comes.

Life moves by so quickly, time ebbing away in a flurry of playdates and trips, mundane things like doing the washing and going to the supermarket, that I don’t want to waste any more of it. The amount of times we have planned a trip somewhere, teeth set on edge before we even make it out of the door thanks to dawdling, reluctance to move, lost shoes. Then far too long of the obligatory in car arguments over music choice, who is going to get out first etc etc. We have had tons of days out that were wonderful of course, but really, some of our very best days have been spent on a blanket in a field, playing Pooh sticks and eating squashed sandwiches.

Nature Walks. Cheaper then Legoland & just as fun.....surely?!

Nature Walks. Cheaper then Legoland & just as fun…..surely?!












Instead of flitting about trying to do everything, I want to just chill the hell out, stop trying to be a tour guide, standing up front, waving my umbrella about in the air while my children flop about and moan at the back, overtired and grumpy, looking for every opportunity to escape out of a side door into the sunshine, and just do Nothing. Oh, and take a lot of naps! Naps are good. That’s something we can hang onto from the baby days at least! 🙂

(This post was written in the aftermath of the ‘celebratory kiddy dinner with a few friends’ that graduated into a leaving party of around 30 kids and their mums! Amazing fun but I’m super tired and on a sugar and e-number crash down today! Let it also be noted that everyone brought something along and as a testament to their fabulousness, around 90% of it was sugar based! :D)

Luckily I'll still have the Whirling Wonder Boy to keep my mind off it. Dread to think what I'll be like when it's his turn!!

Luckily I’ll still have the Whirling Wonder Boy to keep my mind off it. Dread to think what I’ll be like when it’s his turn!!

(Read about how I felt when I also had to wave my Wonder Boy off as well.)

To cheer myself up, here is my hands down favourite YouTube video out there! 😀     






  1. July 15, 2015 / 8:23 pm

    I’m so glad you could do this and it inspired you! The dog video is hilarious and I hadn’t seen it before – brilliant! That picture of the tourists on the bench is also gold 🙂

    • July 15, 2015 / 8:28 pm

      You’ve never seen it? Oh yay! It is my fave ever! I’m 99% sure that we look like that family most eves! 😉

  2. July 15, 2015 / 9:42 pm

    Thank you for the nomination!

  3. July 16, 2015 / 1:46 am

    Thanks for the nomination! It might take me a little while to respond, if that’s ok. I only just did the other one and I’m a rather slow blogger.

    I hope your daughter enjoys school!

    • July 16, 2015 / 6:25 am

      I thought you had been a little quiet. Hope you are ok. Take as long as you like lovely, I look forward to reading it whenever it’s ready. 🙂

      • July 23, 2015 / 2:38 am

        Yeah … this is just how I am with internet activity. Sporadic. It’s partially the cfs; I’ve just had a somewhat-worse-than-usual week and have been living on my couch (not my computer desk). But I can’t even entirely blame that. I get antsy if I feel like I have to constantly check back for comments and updates, and I feel better when I allow myself a little distance. I tend to catch up on blog reading in big chunks.

        • July 23, 2015 / 5:54 pm

          I think it is so important to give yourself a break from the internet. It is so easy to get sucked in and neglect the real world around you. Sometimes it’s nice just to watch tv without phone in hand. My attention is always so split. Good job I’m pretty adept at multi tasking! Sorry you’ve not been 100% recently. I can imagine how draining it is. I suffered from severe anaemia not so long ago and all I wanted to do was sleep, the urge to just lie down where I stood and close my eyes was often overwhelming!!

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